Our Newest Prayer

First off....can I please say a HUGE THANK YOU TO ALLLLLL OF YOU!!!!!!!!

I am seriously overwhelmed with all of your thoughts and prayers coming my way. I have never felt so blessed in my entire life than I do now because I am surrounded by such wonderful people all rooting for me. It makes me realize that if we all take a step back from our own lives, give some encouragement to other people once in a while, this world we live in with so much sadness could completely turn itself around. I mean, so many things can get us down these days, but I can tell you first hand that when you are encouraged by someone else, your fight gets lightened up just a bit. And you Smile :) Could you imagine what it would be like if you could hear God encouraging you everyday? Life would be easy if we audible heard Him everyday. God never said our life would be easy, but you know what??? Through prayer and intuition (you know that thought that comes into your head while praying) you might get some of the answers you are looking for. But sometimes its hard to follow through with that thought because you have to step out of your comfort zone. This, this blog, THIS is out of my comfort zone. But you know what, I have been SO BLESSED from going out of my comfort zone. Try it you guys. Pray, take that outrageous thought that comes to your head that you say you could never do, and DO IT. The least you can do is try. I tell you what, it is the times in my life when I fail, that I learn the most from.

Ok, now that I totally got off topic...we have a special prayer request....
The doctor told me that with the treatment I am using, the ABVD chemo drugs, I have a 20% of being infertile after treatment. Now at first I thought 20%, no big deal...but then I thought 'Wait, someone has to be that 20%'. I automatically thought of my chances even lowering because of how infertile I am already with PCOS. So needless to say, my brain starting wondering about what I should do so that Andrew and I can have our own children in the future. Literally folks, I told Andrew, not much is going to get me down in life, but the day I am told that I can't have my own children is the day you will have to drag me out of bed (hopefully this never has to happen). My heart ACHES for the women out there who so desperately want to have their own children but can't. So, because Andrew DOES NOT want to see that day come :), we spoke to my OB/GYN who referred us to the Toledo Fertility Center of NW Ohio. After talking with them, we have an appointment on Thursday, July 8 at 2:00. The bad part is, is that the process it takes to take out my eggs, fertilize them (that makes me laugh :) and freeze the embryos takes a FEW weeks...I have ONE. And that week is already pretty booked with other appointments to start the chemo process. To top it off, this process ONLY happens if my eggs are mature enough to do so. My oncology doctor will not push back my chemo treatments to have the egg procedure done because the tumor in my chest is already so big that he says if we wait any longer, it could cut off my breathing (we all know what happens then!) and he doesn't want to chance it for such a low fertility risk factor. I understand completely and agree! So I honestly at this point have NO IDEA if this can even happen until I hear from the fertility doctor. Andrew and I just really wanted to make sure we took every step possible in making a future with children in it. Can I just say real quick....Andrew is awesome. He can take my mixed up thought, arrange them in order, and have me completely calm in seconds. When I feel like giving up in 10 seconds, he simply says 'Let's just keep trying and see what happens.' He has seriously been there in every way during this whole process. If you can, don't forget to encourage him also...he's the one who has to put up with this hot mess 24/7 :) We do have hope and I have heard that MANY people do have children after cancer treatments...so needless to say, I am very optimistic too, if this egg thing doesn't work out...but its never a bad thing to be prepared.

Anyway....our prayer is this........ 'God, we have done our part and have looked into our options at this point in time. We put this into Your hands. If the timing works out and we can have the procedure done, great. Our chances at having our own children increase. If it doesn't, we know that somehow this was Your divine plan for our lives. May you open our hearts to all the options YOU have out there for us to have our own children one day. Even if these children do not come from our own bodies, we will praise You because You are faithful.'

Thanks all, and HAPPY 4th of JULY!!! I'm so glad for the freedoms I have...but man will it be nice to not think of the Army anymore after August...ANDREW IS DONE after 6 years of service! :)